There are only two kinds of people in the world: Those who wonder if there will be food on their tables the next day, and those who wonder if the world will have food on it's table the next day.

The problem with people is that everyone lives for themselves, well most of them do. I'm not trying to blow myself up by saying that I'm better than everyone else, but I think that people should stop looking at themselves as the center of the world and looking at the bigger picture. In the modern world of subjectivity and relativism, it's no wonder that everyone only thinks about themselves.

I've so much to say but I can't put my thoughts to words. It's depressing, the state that the world is in. I'm just at loss for words. Am I being delusional? Thinking that somehow I can change the hearts of people around me. Humans will always be humans, and as time goes by it seems everyone is degenerating further and further into our animalistic selves. The world is falling deeper and deeper into destruction. Even I myself am guilty.

"You might try saving yourself."

How Long's It Been?

So I'm finally back from Tekong. After 2 weeks of confinement. Wasn't as bad as I expected but a lot of things have changed, since I've had a lot of time to think during the 2 weeks. No doubt I still dread being enslaved to the government, but it seems a lot of the brainwashing as gotten to me. I'm just glad God has been there with me every step of the way. Life just isn't that easy to live.

It's easy when our lives are planned out for us. Play group, to nursery, to kindergarten, and so on. When we were young we often never had to make any tough decisions for ourselves. The mindset is that if you just do what you're told to do, everything will be fine. It's how most of us were brought up. For some of us, we never had a problem with that. We just do things people tell us to do, and hope for the best.

But some of us don't like being told what to do. We go against social norms; fight and question everything we're being told to do. Society often frowns upon these behavior and label them as "anti-social" because questioning authority is considered detrimental to society's progress. We grow up always trying to stray from the path of the norm, trying to make a life of our own. But it seems the reins of money and politics are being noosed around our necks so tightly that any attempt to stray too far from it will result in death, to our livelihood and survival.

Is that fair? I think not. But yet, what is a man to do when everyone around him, including his loved ones, constantly fill his minds with thoughts that it's something he "has to do" or that "it's (your) duty"? Are you God that you shall decide what I should do with my life? Or that enslavement and absolute control over a person's freedom is considered duty? How is that reasonable? Freedom for better food, and living conditions? Making the rooms brighter doesn't make it any less of a prison cell.

But being confined has actually resulted in some good. In terms of discipline, spiritual walk, and life direction. Things have become a little clearer, in some sense. My spiritual walk with God has strengthened a little bit, because I now depend more on Him to carry me through the various trials and problems I face in my life. Also I've done a little thinking about my future, and relationship with people. Especially those I really care about. So I can't say nothing good has come out of it. God always uses our lives for his benefit. I pray that He uses me as a light to my bunk mates that I might be a faithful servant in all my words and actions.

Life is wonderful.

Sometimes we seem to walk far, but we're stuck in the same spot.

So everything's going to change, big time. NS coming up, gonna meet new people. New kinds of people. New decisions, new phase of life. One thing that will never change, though, is that I have God walking with me along the way and I trust He will keep me.

But I hope I'll still keep in contact with my friends - the "chums" (still think it's a funny name..LOL), DMAT guys, Gladys, Wenjee, etc.. But who knows, everyone's always busy moving on, no one really has anymore time to take a step back and keep you up to date with their lives. We're all on a journey, sometimes we cross paths with people, sometimes they walk with us for a while and go on their way, others come into your life and are there all the way. But then there are those who've come and gone, but who are still on your mind. And no matter how far you walk, how many borders crossed, it seems you're still stuck in the same place. Wishing to turn back time and choose another route, because turning back never feels the same anymore.

But instead of regretting, it's best to learn from mistakes and change yourself to be a better person. Some people say doing so is moving on, but then again one can change but yet not move on. The heart is a funny thing, and everyday that passes I get colder and colder. Sometimes it all just seems so pointless, but I'm grateful that God is there to give me strength to pull through. That he put people in my life who I can open up and turn to.

Thanks Pat. :D