Relationships

We live we die. Friends come and go; old friendships broken and new bonds are forged. Perhaps the saying is true: People hate it when you change because old ways of manipulating you no longer work. It's a sad reality that all these while we delude ourselves into thinking friendships last forever. The only thing that lasts forever is God. I'm learning to move on and not go back to the past because there's no use going back. Everyone, including you, is easily replaceable. The moment you turn your back for a minute your friends run off with another person, leaving you stranded to find new friends.

And worse of all, people you think were your friends are just as such for pretenses. Under all the agenda and veils of lies they really hate you. They hate you for being who you are, they hate you for standing up for what you believe in, they hate you for you. They start talking behind your back while acting as if they accept you. The hypocrisy is disgusting. So much for friendship.

It seems like people only turn to you in times of need and when everything is going smoothly they turn their backs on you. The old saying: A friend in need is a friend indeed. And when they are no longer in need, friends they are not. It is precisely the reason why this life is meaningless. What we think is valuable is actually worthless; what seems real is an illusion; what we think lasts forever crumbles in a blink of an eye. Why then is life worth living? For the fleeting happiness that can be easily destroyed? For the unpredictable love that can leave you any moment? For the restless peace that is so fragile? For patience that is easily disturbed? For kindness that is ridden with so many hidden agendas? For goodness that is slowly dying? For faithfulness that can be broken with a snap of a finger? For gentleness that no longer prevails in the world? For self-control that loses it's meaning? What exactly do we have to live for?

Laughter, Love and Life are delusions. We lie to ourselves in order to make things seem better, in hopes that we will have motivation to continue living. But there's a tipping point. For once you were accepted, and now you are hated. And the world lives on.